I'm stuck

One of my favorite foods is peanut butter. Growing up (and maybe a little bit now) I loved to eat it with a spoon right outta the jar. My favorite way to indulge was to spread an even amount onto a piece of bread and then ever so carefully fold the bread in half. Mmm. I love me so peanut butter fold-over sandwiches. 

The only flaw of a peanut butter sandwich is that it tends to get stuck to the roof of your mouth. It can be kinda annoying and sometimes the only way to get it unstuck is with your finger (ew). 

I’m painting this picture for you because last week (and a little bit now) I felt like that piece of PB sandwich that you can’t quite get unstuck. There’s something in my life that God has been calling me to do for a while. I just can’t seem to get myself to do it. I feel stuck. 

I was sitting on the couch with Caleb and I told him all that I was feeling. How I felt stuck and couldn’t seem to just do it! You know what he told me? 

Sofia, you know exactly what you need to do and you know you are capable. You need to sit down and just do it like Nike. (something like that)

The way he said it made it sound so simple. I had built up all these reasons in my head why I couldn't be obedient to God. Justification after justification. I would pray that God would help me stay focused on this thing, yet I would convince myself there was no way. Fear had made a very comfy home in my head. 

Fear was blocking me from obedience. 

I read a devotion today on Exodus 10. The author was explaining how we all have Pharaoh moments. We all have areas of our life that for whatever reason we don’t let God fully into. We tend to have hard hearts and ignore the call God has set before us. 

The author also shone a light on a detail I had missed in the past. When Pharaoh confessed his sin and asked for forgiveness, God showed mercy and removed the locusts from the land. Immediately. God saw Pharaoh and heard his cry even though he was in the depths of disobedience.    

When we recognize our disobedience and call out to God for forgiveness He will restore everything the locusts have eaten. God delights in showing mercy to our hard hearts. 

We will all go through seasons where we feel stuck. Where fear and shame block us from being obedient to the call God has placed before us. I’ve really felt like that lately. I’m pretty sure my last 3 blog posts have been on obedience. 

On my 21st birthday, I told my whole friend group that this year was about “doing the dang thing”. So last week I sat down and did the dang thing. And it felt amazingly terrifying. But that’s what living in your calling feels like. It’s called a leap of faith for a reason right?!

The most important thing to do when you feel stuck is not to ignore it. I have ignored this tugging on my heart for about 2 years. I have consistently talked myself out of doing it. If you are feeling stuck tell someone. Don’t let the enemy talk you into disobedience any longer. God has been tugging on your heart for a reason. Let’s get unstuck!  

“If you ask why we should obey God, in the last resort the answer is, 'I am.' To know God is to know that our obedience is due to Him.” ~ C.S. Lewis