Just do the dang thing!

Today was one of those days that I just felt like running away and moving to a cabin in the woods of Alaska. Caleb would hunt for our food and I would become a wonderful cook. No cellphones, no social media. Just books and movies and long talks. Simple things. 

I know that sounds super weird but today all of those things felt much easier than what I am doing now (which is so ridiculous because living in the wilderness takes a special kind of person and I am not that). I’m not saying I don't like where I live because I absolutely love my life here. But because what I have been called to do by God stares me in the face day after day and I’m scared to just do it. That’s so hard for me to admit. The voice of fear is so loud sometimes that I just want to run away and ignore my purpose. 

I’m in a season of my life where I am constantly researching ways to be a better version of myself. Whether that be eating clean, working out, how to have healthier skin, etc. I listen to podcasts and read all the books and try my best to improve. I try so hard to do everything right. I do so many things to motivate myself to go for it. Why can’t I just push past the uncertainty? 

Because I’m scared.

I allow fear to win and tune out God’s voice. 

And it has to come to an end.

Before I go any further I feel like I should share what God has called me to do. Like every Jesus follower I am called to live as a reflection of Jesus. I am called to love Jesus and love the people around me. But I am also called to lead worship. I am called to use the gift of song I have been given to spread the love and truth of Jesus. 

And that last part is what has me running scared. 

God has placed a call on my life to write songs that glorify Him. To sing songs that spread the message of His mercy and love. To some it might sound simple. To me it’s my life. It’s what I was created to do and most days I wish it was something different. Most days I feel inadequate to live out this calling. Most days I find myself wanting to shrink back in fear of what could happen if I just went for it. 

I’m writing this today because I know I’m not the only one. I’m not the only one that has all the tools to go for their dreams but doesn't use them out of fear. I’m not the only one that is fighting. I want this cycle to stop. I want to stop being fearful of what could happen and just do the dang thing! Which is mainly why I’m writing this post. To keep myself accountable those days when fear is breathing down my neck, whispering lies into my ears. I want to shove truth into fear’s face and say yes to the call God has given me.

I am equipped. 

I am enough.

I am ready.

God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.